Friday however, I went as far as stopping at the hospital that I pass on the way home.  I never mustered the courage to actually enter the emergency room.  I felt rather silly and I didn’t want to be viewed as an overreacting female.

I’ve been having chest pains and Friday they were the worst that they have ever been.  So bad in fact, that I considered going to the nurse and having the ever-on-duty paramedics check it out.  But I didn’t want to make a fuss.  Yet by the time I left work, my left arm was tingly and numb.

I sat in the hospital parking lot waiting for the pain to pass.  I was thinking, “if it is a heart attack and I have to stay here (and I really hate this hospital), how will Dennis get my car home?  Would they transfer me to a real hospital in Hartford?  Dennis will be worried and he has to work tomorrow.  I can’t be sick right now.”

After a while the pain subsided and I drove myself home.  But believe me it was a very long and slow drive.  All the while wondering if this is my body giving me yet another wake up call.

This pain could simply be FMS.  There is a muscle in the chest that tightens with FMS and mimics a heart attack.  The arm numbness could also be FMS or the damage from the carpal tunnel.  You see why I didn’t want to make a fuss?

When I arrived home I took an aspirin and confessed to Dennis.  He’s been worried about me all weekend.

So Saturday was even more nonproductive than usual.  In the morning I read and stopped at the library.  Once Dennis went to work, I took Ryan to Wal-Mart so he could spend more of his Christmas money.  I behaved and only purchased a new watchband to replace the one that had broken this week.  We went next store and bought a few groceries and we finished our adventure with an early dinner out at a local sandwich shop.  Dennis was home when we arrived home.  We quickly brought all the groceries in the house and we have been in here since. 

On Friday we had temperatures up in the 50’s and Friday night we had a thunderstorm.  Today, we have a wind-chill of –20 degrees.  Even the cats don’t want to go outside.

Today has been laundry day with Dennis jumping up every time I need to lift the basket of clothes.  I finished a library book today and that’s amazing considering I just borrowed it yesterday.  It’s been a very lazy weekend, even for me.

I haven’t had any more chest pain since Friday.  I have an appointment for a physical in March and until then, I’m going to take aspirin every other day.

It’s always something.